Taylor Maria Bowman

i so just did the weirdest thing ever. i was surfing craigslist and found this listing http://fargo.craigslist.org/zip/1520628008.html its about a box of photos that belong to a girl from Armstrong i searched her name on craigslist and found one match. i hope this stuff is hers if anyone knows Taylor Maria Bowman please have her contact this man his number is 701 388 4371

Dear somebody

Dear somebody, i hope someday that you will be ok. so i can discuss my past and how i got this way. i know it hurts you because you weren't around.but you need to hear me out. i need to talk or i may explode you see bad shit has happened to me and what am i supposed to do? keep inside and let it fester? until ill never heal.

please let me open let me free help heal me!

strange times

so out of the blue i sent a message to an old friend of mine and he replied I'm not sure exactly how to feel but i will come clean i needed the compliments haven't been feeling to good about myself and i admit i needed help. he said the right thing and showed up at just the right time.I'm not sure if i should feel bad because it wasn't my boyfriend who said the things i needed or is it ok? anyway bye

Weird Dream

that there were vampires out to get something called "the Key' the key to do anything they want well it varies for one to another one want power the other the ability to walk in the day. and my family a family of witches were protecting the Key

. but somehow the vampires found out our location and every vamp in the world came after us. luckily we lived in an old church and vampires have troubles with holy things we also have a Moat of running water another thing they have trouble with and our last defense,us us witches.
needless to say i was terrified and i was right to be because after a could days they grew more desperate and one calling himself vittero came out of the madness and organized them they begin trying to find ways across like using super speed to cross the holy land when they discovered that they could cross with minimal damage they began carting dirt to the moat to stop the flow. eventually they would get in and tear us all apart.We began practicing our spells and taking shifts.
preparing for the assault then one night on watch i saw a vampire flying in the air above me! he was circling and once he saw i was aware of him he swooped down and and grabbed me putting a cold hand over my mouth to stifle any scream. he was tall and i began calling my magic to protect myself. but he looked at me eyes so dark a blue they seemed black and said
" i will not harm you if you do not harm me."
i don't know why i would believe him but i did looking into his eyes so beautifully dark. held held me tight and suddenly i was in the air flying like a leaf in fall caught on the breeze. i looked down and thought for sure wed end up in the vampire encampment so stupid i thought to believe him.
i closed my eyes and began the magic to harm him so wed both fall to the earth below when i finally opened my eyes to cast the spell i did not notice that we were not by the encampment at all. and i cast the spell i saw the flash of light and heard his screams of pain. i just closed my eyes and let myself fall down to the earth below when suddenly i felt the impact of something hit me .
my eyes flew open and it was him grabbing me tight slowing our descent to the earth and we landed gently on the ground. him screaming his pain and rage and me beyond confused. he looked at me face snarling.
"what is wrong with you! I didn't hurt you!"
" i thought you were taking me to your encampment." i said.
heart racing i stepped toward him. i took a deep breath and apologized "i'm sorry.i hurt you this is all very confusing mostly the why am i alive part." He laughed then which turned into a howl of pain.
"damn it all" he muttered it will take hours to heal this enough for me to get us back." i took another step towards him "how bad is it?" he looked at me surprise showing on his face. " you don't know the extent of your power?! oh thats swell i would nab the one dumb witch with no control. if you want to know ill have to re-grow an arm part a leg and a shoulder.
Luckily for me" he said " you have terrible aim." he gave a bark of a laugh and then muttered a few curses.i had maybe 5 steps to go to stand next to him. i took a step back and asked my questions "why did you grab me anyway? and why did you let me fall and why do you take so long to heal and how can you fly?!" he just stared at me and i tried to ignore the feeling of guilt blossoming in my heart. he hadn't hurt me. he actually saved me from my own folly. damn there's the guilt.i shook my head and waited for any answer he had.

he answered them quickly and abruptly. " i grabbed you because i wanted to tell someone the plan they have. i saved your skinny butt because i need you to tell them the plan, i take so long to heal Due to the fact i don't drink blood from humans and Flying is just a rare gift for a vampire to have."

I blinked and tried to understand a vampire who didn't drink human blood? who wants to help the witches protect the key? and i shot him out of the sky. god i can be stupid. i took a deep breath and looked to him wishing i could see his face but the forest was to dark. "so what's there plan?" he stopped his harsh breathing and began. "the super-fast vampires are the advance guard they will be going to the back to attack there and draw your attention then the, the." He stopped and walked closer to him worried and confused not because i feel like i owe him because i hurt him but because i needed the information. Right that would never stick i sighed. "Vampire where are you?" i barely heard the "Here." "what's going on why'd you stop?"
"too Hurt need to rest."
"we don't have time for you to rest! we need to get back and warn the witches! Vampire!"
He was silent once more and i cursed.
"Vampire? drink some of my blood heal and tell me the rest so we can warn them!"
"i cant" he whispered "vowed to never drink."
"please" i begged "help me save my family Please!"
hot tears began to fall
"please vampire."
i felt him touch me his hands so cold
" i don't know if i can stop once i start" he whispered
" you told me you wouldn't harm me if i didn't harm you. i know i kinda messed up my end. but just remember you need me."
he pulled me into him until i could feel his sluggish heart beat,which confused me after i had been told that vampires hearts didn't beat no matter what they did. who was this Vampire who could fly, who would help witches, whose heart still beat in his chest?
"who are you?" i managed to whisper before i Fell or at least i think i fell maybe i was flying again? i felt so safe so free so warm.
then i was crashing back into reality into my tired weak body filled with fear and sorrow and loneliness so deep it burned.
i sighed and opened my eyes so slowly that i almost couldn't open them at all.
i felt a peace for a second before reality crashed back First and Fore most the word Vampire.i sat up as fast as i could and my head felt like it wasn't connected. He sat in front of me silent.
" what is it What's going on?"
in a voice quiet and daunting he told me "you are the Key."

day 2

Wow i am surprised i remember to type. now i know no one is reading these now but thats ok. its been a weird day my son would not nap today At all it was had to get him to sleep and now my poor honey has a head ache and my shoulders ache probably from hunching to type and see the computer oh i would love to find a desk like my old one put the screen at eye level wrists were in the perfect spot and a tun of storage thats also probably what it weighed but o it was amazing. now im gonna go get massaged by my love
see ya!

Hmm

Well to start, i think I'm kinda a nerd because i love to read, but really I'm quite well-rounded i like nature and trying new things but i am comforted by tradition. i unfortunately married at the wrong time to the Wrong guy and now i am getting divorced i bear him very little ill will. and maybe that makes me a door mat though i don't think so, I'm just being considerate i mean he lost his wife and never sees his son he is homeless and friendless.
that's gotta suck. so yea i try to be nice. i love holidays any of them i like to give to people and help them whenever i can. I miss my best friend Ashlei like a constant ache. and even my parents and i kinda understand them now.
They meant Well.
I'm terrified because my sister is now pregnant and I'm not sure shes responsible enough for the baby plus her husband pisses me off to the point that i want to scream at him. i worry for her and her child.i hope she learns that i am here for here always. my parents told me not to get married,they were right they told me to stay with them get a job and go to community college if i had i wouldn't have my son but yes life would be easier and i know they were trying to save me some pain.
but leaving made me grow up in so many ways and i needed that to be who i am now. not to mention Knowing my wonderful son who i love so much.if i hadn't left i would have probably ended up with the guy i am now any way so i am glad that worked out. he is everything to me, he wants to see me happy and he is my heart he helps with my son, changing diapers giving baths feeding him and holding him when hes sad.
not to mention all the games they play. it was hard to accept his help for awhile my ex-husband never helped. i am glad i left him my life is still tough but i got rid of all the extra pain he caused, all the lies, the cheating, the beatings. i am a better person for my ordeal though i know it changed me in some bad ways like i got used to silence no friends no family to talk to its weird and scary to talk to them again.
but I'm trying because i love them and i know they would have helped if they knew they are all wonderful and amazing people and i hope i can repair my friendships with them. well i gotta stop rambling here :) and try to go to sleep. but i have one last thing to say. the world is tough and strange and beautiful and sad. but its amazing to be a part of and i wouldn't change it.

Hello World

Hello World! this is my first Post Joy i think i Really dont understand why im doing this but i am so Hello.